Truth

I'm tired.

Not the kind of tired where you haven't gotten enough sleep.  Well, that too, in honest.  But I'm talking about being emotionally tired.  The kind of tired that drains your strength and saps your soul and leaves you feeling empty and hollow.

I've had a long weekend. 

So I'm sitting here on Sunday night, trying to come up with something clever and entertaining and I'm just not getting anything.  That usually means that I'd write something dark and dreary instead, but I can't even come up with that.  I trying to sift for ideas, but they just drain through my hands.  None of them are worth hammering into something coherent.  Maybe because there's nothing left worth saying.

So instead of saying something, I'll instead offer up the words that other men and women have penned, words that have served me well.

"Everyone is down on pain, because the forget something important about it: pain is for the living.  Only the dead don't feel it.  Pain is a part of life.  Sometimes it's a big part, and sometimes it isn't, but either way, it's part of the big puzzle, the deep music, the great game.  Pain does two things: it teaches you, tells you that you're alive.  Then it passes away and leaves you changed.  It leaves you wiser, sometimes.  Sometimes it leaves you stronger.  Either way, pain leaves its mark, and everything important that will ever happen to you in life is going to involve in in one degree or another."

-Harry Dresden, White Night

"You go on. You just go on. There's nothing more to it, and there's no trick to make it easier. You just go on."

-Harra, Memory

These words are not exactly a comfort to me, at least not in the sort of way where you feel warm and fuzzy and happy on the inside.  I don't have much use for that kind of comfort, cause in my experience, it's not often real.  

They do remind me of the truth, though, and the truth, while not always a comfort, is real.  You either find the strength to stand before it, or you're crushed beneath it. 

And I would rather bare my teeth and take my chances with the truth.